Well, after I had to wait like 2 weeks to get my computer back, I finally got it back yesterday.You may be wondering why I didn't have my computer. Well, thats a long story; but I have nothing better to do so I will tell you. =D Okay so, about 2 weeks ago we started having problems with it. It just kept shuting down in the middle of doing important stuff. [School work, talking to friends/family, etc] So we took it to the shop. The guy there was a real jerk; he gave us attitude and kept our computer for over a week and claimed he still didn't know what was wrong with it. So, my mom knows another guy that fixes computers and we took it to him, he got it fixed in a day. When we got home I went to carry the tower inside, and well I had my jacket over my hands [as usual] and it slipped out of my hands, landed on the concreite and got broke and bent all up. So.... we had to take it back and the guy said the hard drive was crushed and we lost everything, so they had to replace it. And now they were looking for a new casing for it... because the old one was all bent, extremely bad! Well, they found one like 2 days later. And that's how we finally got it back yesterday. It was a long enough wait... but I got through it. I think if it had taken any longer I would have died or something without it. But the worst part was having to install everything again, since the hard drive had to be replaced. I wanted to cry. And I had the worst time hooking up the internet... I didn't do it before, the ppl that come out to connect everything did when we moved... like forever ago. lol. Well, thats the story. I hope you enjoyed it.

i was just wondering you had fun i guess. its good that you really grew up since i saw you last i like that you are a very mature smart person don't settle for just anything ok your 16 now and things are gonna rare their heads that you may never think will be possible but yo need to really be careful and smart think things out before you do them and you will go far in life i have made mistakes for not doing that but now i am thinkning out the things i do and i am doing goood and believe me it is hard life isn't easy but especially for me in my situation but know and understand that things will go good if you put a good effort forth ok don't ever give up and when you get a boyfriend be smart get a boyfriend not for looks but for how he treats you and how you feel with him do not let him down you and things will be great build a good life and keep doing what you are doing you will be great your cousin james

Ok so I guess you got that it was from my cousin. Well, not just family tell me this; teachers and other people I meet tell me this too. But this is how I feel....

Yeah, i know. People tell me that all the time. But sometimes it's easier said than done. I mean people depend on me so much and they think that I can handle everything on my own and I can't but I try and don't complain because I know complaining won't get you anywhere. you know?

And this is his reply to that:
i get that but sometimes we have to make a choice for ourselves and the hell with what everybodyelse says you know just be you and do you and all will work out fine with that

I guess what he said is true but it's just hard. But like people say, that's life.

Okay, I'll start from the beginning.
About a year ago on November 23, 2005 my cousin past away. After the services and everything my Aunt claimed that my mom did something horrible when we were there. The thing is, my mom did absolutely nothing out of the ordinary. So, now my mom doesn't want anything to do with my Aunt; until she can admit she did wrong by saying a bunch of mean things about my mom. My mom doesn't even want my sister and I over at her house or anything.
Well, last friday my Grandma was driving me to my friend's house and she was planning on going to my Aunt's after she drove me to my friend's. But I told her "Just go there first and then take me, I won't tell mom." I really didn't want her to go out of her way to take me to my friend's first. So, needless to say, we went. When we went inside there was this overwhelming feeling, like my cousin was there. It was kinda like he was still alive and he was watching over me or somthing. I don't feel that everywhere I go... just certain places. And at his parent's house was definately the strongest I had felt it.
Some people might think I am crazy or something but thats okay because some people just don't understand. My cousin had this thing about him; and believe me, you could tell when he was around. lol. He was one of the most amazing people ever. I just wish there was a way to turn back time and make everything normal again. I miss him so much.

Talk about the weirdest things. And we post strange bulletins on myspace about each other. She died her hair today and there is bright red in it! =O I never thought she would do it; but it looks really good. I got my hair cut... kinda. I got my bangs cut. They are too short and if I don't straighten them they curl up and look stupid.

Oh and my speakers stopped working and then my whole computer died and then after I performed surgery on it it came back to life and the speakers work. =D I love it. lol.

I can't wait til tomorrow. Someone comes over. And Tori is now telling me how she wants to go for a drive and for some reason I do too. Wahh! Why does she do that? lol. And I want some mountain dew too. Grr.

Well, as I mentioned about picking up my FCAT scores and progress report.
My progress report looked like this: Spanish=F, English=C, Early Childhood Education=B, Psychology=C.
So, as you can see they are not the best grades. But I did pass the FCAT! I was so happy! I was like jumping up and down and screaming... but when I told my friends at school [that failed], they were mad at me and one of them slapped me! So sad!
Anyways... I have to go now. <3

...I go back to school! YAY! I am so happy. EEK! I can't wait! I get to see all my friends again. Oh and not to mention all the great gossip. [j.k!] I hate gossip. Although it can be quite interesting to listen to.
Well, I really don't have much to say today. Right now I am bored out of my mind and there is no one online to talk to.
So, I will go try to have fun until tomorrow. And then I know I won't be happy when I get my progress report and FCAT results. I hope I passed it this time. I don't want to have to take it again next year as a Senior. Well, later peoples. <3

Well, right now I don't have much time because it's late and I should go to bed soon. lol Not too much has gone on today except that I want coffee. That has got to be the one thing in the world I love more than anything else. Oh yeah! Monday I have school. UGH! Back to the same routine of getting up at 6am and going to class at 7:23am and not leaving until 2:45pm. It kind of makes me mad that school lasts so long. But I am used to it. Woot Woot! Only one more year until I am out of school. But my mom said i have to get my permit [which I should already have, but I am a little scared of all the idiots driving around out there] and I have to get a job by this summer, if not before. UGH! I guess I will figure out a way to balance it all out. Well, night nights. <3

...I love fluffy light up pens. And I broke mine! ]= I was so sad! Anyways, I hope you guys had a great thanksgiving. Mine was good, surprisingly. My sister was sick though and ended up going to the hospital. She got back before dinner was done though, which was good. But then she didn't eat b.c she was still sick. Last night her fever went all the way up to 104.7! We were worried but she was fine. Yep yep. I can't wait to go back to school. I miss my friends a lot! Thats really the most important thing about school, friends. I don't go to become smarter... just for my friends. Although I am really enjoying my psychology classes and I am thinking about taking psych AP next year. Woo woo! I will be a senior! Oh yeah! Gotta love it! lol. I can't wait til the day before we get out for Christmas break! I am going to go to the Christmas Parade and see my friends that are in it, and if i'm lucky I might find my other friends and hang out with them while we watch the parade and catch candy. hehe! We know it's for the kids but we like candy too!

Today has been so hectic! [sp?] I am so not feeling good, I think I am getting sick or my allergies are acting up or something. I hate it! Oh... and my stupid teachers are so ugh! I a hate them all, except Mrs. Camacho. She is the only cool teacher I have. Why is high school so stressful? Maybe it's because it's not only high school that I have to deal with. It's my family, friends, and just every little thing. For some reason I just start acting really weird for no reason. It's like I don't want to be around anyone. Not because I don't like them or I am "growing out of them" but because I just want to be left alone for a while. But when people don't understand that it just make it worse and way more stressful and it makes me less likely to want to be around them or anyone.



Wow... that's probably a lot more than any of you really care about. I will stop now. Yep yep. =O

Well, today was quite boring. I did chores and got online. Wow! That's even more boring when you type it. But anyways... I really should check myspace because I know there must be something there I am neglecting to do. Lalala... Now I must got get ready for school tomorrow, take a shower, and finish my laundry so I will have clothes that I actually want to wear. I am sure you really don't want to hear about me getting ready for school and taking a shower lol. So, I will post another entry tomorrow and tell you what happened there, which I am hoping will be a lot more interesting than this. Later